I started 2012 with a regret.
But now everything's much better. I don't know when I'll stop feeling so tired but I hope it's gonna be soon.

I'm not saying I'm not happy. I am.
After all I made decisions for myself and moved on. I just hope you do too. I'm not used to being the one hurting people. Not sure where all these tiredness is coming from.


So afraid too.
What if all the plans I made for myself didn't work out. What if everything I told myself not to do I did. What if the next stage of my life is just a mutated version of my past. Wouldn't I just be going in circles?

I try to be the person I wanna be but I can't deny who I really am.
Does that even make sense?