You know... All I am expecting from myself now is not to be a burden to the team.
You know... Like everything I do can be trusted and..

Hmm... It really feels different playing the game and watching it after.
Things that seemed (felt?) good doesnt seem so anymore.
I'm 4years into DotA and I've achieved not even half of what I want. Lol.
Which sucks.
Why am I always just an average person no matter what I do. Average in life, average in studies, average in IIDX, average in Jubeat, average in DotA.
Damn, why can't I just be one of the best at something and suck at everything else. I think I would be happier. Maybe...


Maybe I'm just not working hard enough.