I'm on the verge of running away from these. I don't know what I can write to make myself feel better, to persuade myself that this relationship is still worth me cherishing. I've never felt like this before, like I really need a break.
But I don't want a break. Truthfully, I don't trust myself enough to believe that I can just live my life without him now. And I don't trust that he'll make any effort to keep me by his side. I don't feel like I'm of any importance to him. So what if I cry, so what if I'm angry. Nothing about me seems like it matters to him.