The truth is, I can't imagine life without him now. What kind of person will I become? On the other hand, he most probably can. After all, he has his games and doesn't have to face an idiot like me.
Yesterday suddenly feels so surreal, telling me I can't leave him. If that really how he feels? Or is that just some way to make me happy only. Does he really not want me to leave him? Is he really afraid of losing me? If so, why is he doing this to me.
Everytime I'd ask myself what I've done wrong to make him angry. but is it really my fault? Have I really done something wrong? I'm so tired of experiencing this sadness and being hurt like this every few weeks. So what if we're almost together for 2 years?
Can I leave him? Do I want to? But is my love enough to keep me going if this persists?