I wish I was really as nonchalant and uncaring about things as I say I am. Things would probably be so much easier. For me and other people.

It's really so hard to be the considerate and nice person in a r/s, in school, at work, in this world. Lol. I blame my PMS for my emoness this few days.
If only I was a little more confident of myself... Or even a little braver... Being scared really takes a toll on me. Zz and I'm ALWAYS scared...


Really thank god for those few people I have around me who understand what I'm thinking and going through. I think I actually am making some true friends. Hope it's not short term, cos I've had quite a few of those.

The next 1 1/2 day is going to be horribly longggg... So many thoughts I can feel like head stretching. I think I'll be writing a lot till then...