I've been thinking a lot these days. About me and him. Sometimes I doubt our relationship, sometimes I blame myself. I try to find reasons to explain why we are together. Suddenly, "I love you" just doesn't seem to suffice. What do we have in common except for gaming? Even so, gaming has always led us to quarrels. Even if we both love each other, how long can we last if both of us are always so easily irritated at each other?

Or maybe to him I'm emotional, unreasonable, tempremental, irritating.. I don't know. Maybe a burden, a liability to him already..
Sometimes I feel it's just wrong of me to try and keep him by my side and me mine only, when he's meant to be free and... Out there without the chains from a relationship. But I'm too selfish, and dependent.. And too scared..

Whining like this obviously doesn't solve anything.. I just feel so lost.. I just need to get through this period of hell.. Help me, please.. You.