Basically, I think I'm just buying things for the joy I get from buying them.
Spending money feels so great. Spending unnecessary money is not so great.
Lol. I gotta stop.

Life feels so monotonous nowadays.
Aion, DotA, work, sleep. There's no grigri in there at all. He's too busy caring about lagging behind in levels in Aion to be bothered anyway. Not that I didn't expect this. And I think as time goes by I gradually begin to just let things go. Nothing I can do even if I get angry or sad. I'd only waste my own energy and brain cells.
Lol but I really hate it when he gives me pressure to play. Always makes me feel like I'm his burden or something. Like he'd be ashamed if people see his girlfriend being a low level. And as always, I'm probably thinking too much, or at least that's what he would say.
And when I do play, he makes me feel like a total loser/noob/idiot/stupid etc. Like I shouldn't even be playing at all. Lol I used to go crazy and make a big fuss out of it. Now I just ignore and shut up. And I realised it helps a great deal to just shut up and let him be. I can't ever win him in a quarrel anyway, neither do I want us having to go through another senseless quarrel.

And I really get quite pissed off when he gives excuses to not send me home when my place is just 10mins walk away. It's totally okay if he says no, but it's not when he gives excuses. Not when he says he's tired and he's gonna sleep soon but when I am home he plays Aion with me for another 3 hours before he sleeps. I don't get it at all. Is he just plain lazy or is he really tired? Not that I didn't talk to him about this before, I'm so sick of caring and hoping for something out of him. I'd only feel like shit after disappointment. But still, as much as I whine about him, he's still the best... lol.

A silly thought just came to my mind.
If I was super angry at him and said that I'd only forgive him if he shave all his leg hairs, would he do it? LOL. Funny thought. Don't think he will. Lol..


Enough of the shit talk I guess. Just venting my frustration for the past week here. Lol.

Exciting things coming up include ESTC and school starting. This is the first ever time in my whole life I'm looking forward to the start of school. Not that I wanna go to school at 8am, I just feel glad that I am not working full time lol. Working really sucks.
ESTC is gonna be great I can feeeeeel it. I am of course excluding the fact that we would probably lose a lot of games. My only hope is that I don't feed. I haven alwayssssss wanted to go to Thailand~~ And I've been even more excited after knowing that Cyn would be coming with us. Cheap food, shopping weeeeeeee. Food food food.
I even get to skip the first day of school 'cos of ESTC! Lol.

Okay I am positive there's something growing in my left eye. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz damn shit.
Whatever it is I hope it'd go away tomorrow -_- My eye has been hurting for like 3 days already.

Haven't been watching much of my Jap dramas lately. I think it's time to mass watch. Shall go to work earlier and order a sundae while watching Bloody Monday.
Oh I just remembered, I can't do that 'cos he's gonna bring my laptop to work to play Aion LOLOLOL
I'm getting owned by Aion.