The people whom I wan so much to care about, does not. Am I void of feelings? Wy don't I feel a tint of care/concern. I thought this would all turn out fine, I am trying so hard to occupy myself with things to do. So I wouldn't think so much and bring myself misery.
I was afraid of this bloody feeling. Of hoping for something, and not seeing it come true. Of bearing too much hope in me, only to get disappointed in the end.

It is me who has high expectations. And fuck why do I expect so much.


Hen xing ku.
Yi ge ren.