I just finished reading Chmel's blog entry about her family and stuff.
And I feel like I'm such a not good sister/daughter/granddaughter/friend.

That's a lot of things to be bad in.


Being the oldest child in the family, I am like supposed to take care of the other two and be niceynicey to them, right? But it's been like Trina doing this, Trina doing that for years. Gina's geting tortured by me everyday too.

I like Trina a lot a lot. I just keep torturing my sisters, forcing thm to do stuff for me.
And I am soooooooo bad to them. I don't even get things for them! I mean, like chocolates and stuff.
I think Trina would be so pissed with me someday, and Gina is so deprived of childhood.



And my parents. I sometimes feel damn unfilial. The way I scream at them.
I am supposed to help with all the housework and stuff, but everyday I just keep lazing around in front of the laptop and the television.
Or I'd be sleeping.
With all the debts and such things, I don't know how my mother cope.

Moreover, sometimes I think that my father's a jerk, after I found out about how he treat my mother when I was still so young. They didn't expect me to find out I think. But other times, he can be so nice to me, apart from all that shouting.


And I seriously don't give a damn about my grandfather at times.. Waffffakkkkk~ I feel bad everytime I see him sitting at the basement alone doing nothing at all without anyone to talk to. It's like, always in the movies, the grandchildren would be so close with the grandparents. Heart to heart talks and such, yea? But nothing like this has ever happened on me and my grandparents.



I'm a bloody bitch to my friends too.
I take them for granted, seriously. Until XoC came and such.
Not 1 friend ever meant so much to me until I started DotA.


My mother's slamming things and mumbling unde her breath about what a useless piece of shit I am. Now. About how I am like a disabled.
Nice timing, that would make me feel better. Not.