Nothing I say and do will be enough to make it up to you. There is nothing that I can say and do to make it up to you.
What you want is something that I think would not be good for us, though you do not think so. I have practically forced you into this situation and I can't do anything to change things back, I admit. This is the first time in my life I have ever disappointed someone so much and let someone down to this extend that I cannot stand myself. I try to imagine myself back to that short period of time and I realised nothing would probably come out of it. If I were to agree, sometime later, the same thing would happen all over again and I'm sure both of us do not want that to happen.
I can jolly well agree to what you want but I won't. Because I know I won't make you happy and I won't be 100% committed.


You're begging me and I'm begging you.
I held on to the phone after you hung.
And listened to the telephone's sound.
While thinking about what I've done, I imagined you suffering.
That won't happen again, as that's not what I want.
2 ways.
Yours and mine.
But yours would lead you to be hurt in the end too and I would be selfish and untrue.
Mine is not the best though. You still have to suffer it through. I brought this upon you and nothing I say would make you feel better about it.



Crying wouldn't solve anything but at least I would have the courage to face this after that.
I'm sorry I can't ease your pain the way you want me to.