I think I'm losing focus. In everything.
And I think I'm desperate in a way. Of course I'll be happy, when this kind of things happen to me. But I can't bring myself to believe it due to my past experiences. It's like, I know what's the worst that can happen and I don't know what's the best that can happen. The only way I can protect myself is to be strong and try to take things easier. I lose it, I lose it. If it stays by my side, I'd be happy no doubt.

I'M A HAPPY GIRL. (: