"Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart, tell me what do you do when it all falls apart."


HuanQing adores me. ADORES. And I tell her, "There's nothing special or good about me."
She associates me with words like strong, independent. Yes, true. Maybe I am. I would rather die than show people I'm weak. And I think girls who cry over guys who dump them are stupid. Then, I remember I was not born with this character.
I used to whine about everything and I wasn't as strong as I am now mentally.

I sat here, and thought about the things after I got off the phone with HuanQing. it was then I realised that I don't really like myself. However, I don't seem to care whether I like myself, neither do I care what people think about me for that matter. And so, I ask myself, "Am I doing what is right, is this what I want? Is this how I want to be?"

And yea.
Unknowingly, I've built an invisible wall around myself, isolating myself with others. I'm still socialising, though. But what everyone knows about me is just the thin layer of oil that I've coated on the walls. Try to get over the wall, fall.
For the record, only 1 has been able to get over the wall and yet, nothing good has come out of it.
So, enough of believing and trusting.




From now on, Kimberlyn is alone, ya?