Realised what a not-so-good girlfriend I am.
Actually, I should have realised it when people start calling me bitch.
All those things that I should have done but didn't, I will start doing it now.
I appreciated everything and I guessed it's just that I didn't want to "lose face" or I wanted to act cool or whatever. Slap me!! I deserve to die or not "showing my true colours", my positive true colours that is.

My indecisive-ness has caused so much internal torture in him that I feel the intense pain too.
I've joked around too much and I will be serious from now on.
I will repend on my mistakes and start "MAKINGAMENDS" mission now.
So all I hope is that he feels the same as he does, and realise that both the things he wants can be achieved at the same time.
Effort and determination, smeared with love.
I'm going to do all I can to make this work, make him happy.

I guess the both of us needs to be braver and just go.
Don't think of what will happen in the future and just be faithful to each other.
No problem at all. We can do it!
Just give me a chance to make amends, and yup.
Give each other a chance.