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Posted on Wednesday, August 2
Posted at 10:22 PM
Posted at 10:22 PM
you shi hou, wo huo zhe huo zhe, jiu jian jian jue de sheng huo mei you yi yi.
looking at the people around me, they seem more blessed than me, don't they? money, friends. they do not lack of them at all. friends everywhere, whenever they need someone to accopany them, someone would appear. when they need money, they seem to be able to make it appear in their hands like magic. *poof* $20.
it's not that i'm materialistic, i may sound like it, but i guess it's just the work of jealousy. hmmm, no, maybe envy. looking at how easy their life goes. like water in a stream, flowing naturally with no doubt. on the other hand, me. yes, me. water in a rapid. whirlpools. wo zhi dao, bi qi yi xie qi ta de ren, wo di que shi hen xing fu le. i understand. at least i've got a boyfriend who loves me and is willing to take care of me. at the most, i've got a complete family. to think of it, no matter how poor i am, i still am able to live on.
but maybe for one day, i would like to be in the shoes of those i regard as "the blessed ones". envious is the word. mmm hmmm. to speak the truth, i don't understand the meaning of a friend. someone u can pour your problems to? or someone u have spoke at least 1 sentence to? how would u know whether to trust the person or not? i've stopped believing in true friendship after some time in secondary school life. how to believe? but sometimes, i really wished i had friends. whether they are true to me, or not. at least, i wont feel so alone? left out?
i often console myself, at least i've got marc.
on the other hand, i cant be sure how long he'd stay by my side.
all in all, it's just me. 2 and a half years. i've learnt independence that i didn't have. i've learnt not to be too trustful. i've learnt not to talk to much (u can make someone bu shuang just cos of a simple sentence, when u dun even mean to provoke that person).
i think i'd just treasure whatever i've got now, stop poking into other ppl's businesses, shut my big mouth up and study hard. considering how i feel as a child of my parents now, i don't think i wan my children to feel the same way as i do too.
so kim, JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU!
looking at the people around me, they seem more blessed than me, don't they? money, friends. they do not lack of them at all. friends everywhere, whenever they need someone to accopany them, someone would appear. when they need money, they seem to be able to make it appear in their hands like magic. *poof* $20.
it's not that i'm materialistic, i may sound like it, but i guess it's just the work of jealousy. hmmm, no, maybe envy. looking at how easy their life goes. like water in a stream, flowing naturally with no doubt. on the other hand, me. yes, me. water in a rapid. whirlpools. wo zhi dao, bi qi yi xie qi ta de ren, wo di que shi hen xing fu le. i understand. at least i've got a boyfriend who loves me and is willing to take care of me. at the most, i've got a complete family. to think of it, no matter how poor i am, i still am able to live on.
but maybe for one day, i would like to be in the shoes of those i regard as "the blessed ones". envious is the word. mmm hmmm. to speak the truth, i don't understand the meaning of a friend. someone u can pour your problems to? or someone u have spoke at least 1 sentence to? how would u know whether to trust the person or not? i've stopped believing in true friendship after some time in secondary school life. how to believe? but sometimes, i really wished i had friends. whether they are true to me, or not. at least, i wont feel so alone? left out?
i often console myself, at least i've got marc.
on the other hand, i cant be sure how long he'd stay by my side.
all in all, it's just me. 2 and a half years. i've learnt independence that i didn't have. i've learnt not to be too trustful. i've learnt not to talk to much (u can make someone bu shuang just cos of a simple sentence, when u dun even mean to provoke that person).
i think i'd just treasure whatever i've got now, stop poking into other ppl's businesses, shut my big mouth up and study hard. considering how i feel as a child of my parents now, i don't think i wan my children to feel the same way as i do too.
so kim, JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU!
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