sorry, dear. sorry.

wo bu shi gu yi de.
i dont know why i've become like that a person. i know i'm very wilful, and that you have been tolerating me and giving in to me. i want this, u'll give me. last time, it was u that's taking me for granted, this time, it's me. i'm sorry.

and with all that pressure from home, and the past unpleasent memories of her and u, i really can't bear to lose u. ): i'm scared of this and that, u understand. whenever i know u are connected to her in someway, there's just this tingly feeling inside my body. i feel insecure as though there's no way back. so strong that i can hardly feel other emotions, feelings.

i try too hard. too hard to make u happy, to assure us a forever. i overdo things, u get frustrated with me. i'm just want to say i'm sorry. i'm alone without u. ): i think i can only depend on u. maybe i'm asking too much for u and now u cant cope with it. i dont want to quarrel, not ever. especially not starting the quarrel about her. dun be angry at me anymore, u do know how much i need u by my side.

dont u?