i'm trying not to be bitchy.
i'm trying not to be angry.
i'm trying not to sad.
i'm trying not to slap someone.

i dun really feel hatred or what.
it's just that, i can't accept that he could have liked her before, when we were still tgt.
this side, he says he love me.
that side, he say he loves her.
how many ppl does he love?

it just happens that i'm not a girl who is willing to share her bf with everyone.
sorry to say that, but i'm not that da fang.
fine. they wan to hold hands and take pictures tgt.
i can pretend i dun noe about it.
i can, but i won't.
if she's so despo and wan to kiss him, fine.
go ahead. but i trust marc.
it's not that i'm proud. i have my times when i'm scared too.
fucking hell. all the fucking problems starts this year.
what does that mean? infer it yourself.
i'm just not the type of girl who plays with relationships.
i'm dead serious, and i mean it.

actually, we had nothing to do with each other at all.
why did you come into the picture?
what's with all that holding hands?
i-love-you-s?
my limit is high. very high.
but stop it, you're almost touching the line now.
poke my ass a few more times and i will go crazy.
i will try not to.
i have tried many stuff this year.

trying to like you.
trying to be friends with you.
trying to assure myslf that marc and me would be fine even with you arnd.
trying to be happy.
trying not to cry.
trying not to see things i dun wan to see.
trying to make myself happy.
trying to forget about marc.

and i failed.


just go away.
you have so many ppl who like you out there.
go.
why must you come near him.
we are trying so hard to be tgt forever.
we are trying so hard to understand each other more.
dou yi jing kuai yao dao mu biao le.
fuck damn it.
and here you come again.
back to square one.

mk once said to me that i'm very bitchy.
yes, i am.
when i'm pissed off. when i'm sad.
especially when i'm hurt.
dun force me to scold you face to face please..
please.
that's my limit.
we are kind of friends now.
i've tried.
please. you lead your life and i lead my life.
i would nv cross your path willingly.





i just wan to be with marc.