WAHAHAHA. S-H-O-R-T-L-I-S-T-E-D orrrrrrrrr~
<3

Was against Dawn's bane in 1v1. I totally tio pawned. -____- Expected, since I dumb dumb go and use Potm. I didn't even know what made me choose Potm luh. It just came, and.. well. I clicked and... mehhhh. My arrow kept missing her and she kept sapping me. Wah, cui. I almost shake head until my head drop. In the end, she was like 3 levels higher than me.

BUTBUTBUT, 5v5. Hohoho. Kim zaiX. Ok, actually maybe not. But, at least my control of inferno today was quite ok. Never forget my rock or whatever. And I DK-ed! Happy or. Plus, I DRAFTED FOR THE TEAM. Like, zomg. I got no experience, and I had to draft. Super stressed. I took a bloody long time to draft luh. =p Wl, Bane, Sk, Lich, Vs against Qop, Viper, Zues, Thd, Veno.
Thanks to the guy who played Sk, who helped me a lot a lot. Without his epi and burrows, I couldn't have killed. ^^V

Yuna just told me that I never let Viper farm too much in mid lane! He said I overfarmed. Is there even such a thing as overfarm? O.O
Wow, I am happy! Because I thought I let her farm up quite a bit. My denies and creep kills were low in early game. ): And I don't know how to make use of the fog. Mehhh, need to learn.
Shocked at my Warlock today but luck is good. Hoho.


Thanks to GhimYang who came to watch me. SUPPORT ME SIOL. Still buy chocolate pancake give me eat. Eat already then got luck! :D
Still got Jong who bought bubbletea for me to drink. Actually, it was me who was supposed to treat him. =/ Guilty.
And still got Jb! If not for him, I think I would have taken ages to find GG man. He super nice bring me there lah! STILL PAY CABFARE SOMEMORE. Wah, damn nice lah! :D


Then, after ALL of that, I went to Chambers and played a match with Jong, Sher and Lei. Omgfuckingbbqshit. Sher is imba farmer. Lei is scary. And Jong is cold. Hahah. Damn fun playing with them! :D

Ok, enough of DotA I think.
AMKsian family day today. ZOMG, Allan Wu's bod is HAWTTTTT~ But his face CMI lah. Rofl. I tio sun burnt. Super suay please. -____- Then I go *'s trial with my whole face red. Then people thought I stressed or what.
OH YA REMINDS ME. Before leaving with Ghim, I went toilet.
AND I WALKED INTO THE BOYS TOILET. I was like, DIE LAH. I was totally inside the toilet lah! Walan. Then I faster chiong out. Xia suay. =/


P.S Kiong, I THOUGHT YOU CARE ABOUT MY TRIALS BUT IN THE END, YOU GAVE ME A "WHAT A JOKE". Wah, I want to slap you already. >=[

Potm, Vs or Lich. Potm, Vs or Lich. Which one. Which bloody one. I bloody don't know.
I am super comfortable with Vs, but it is not a 1v1 hero luh.
Lich, I super... Haii. All I can say is I lost 1v1 to Poo's viper. So die.
As for Potm, my elune is so inaccurate that I.. ok never mind. Forget it.

OR MAYBE I WILL USE ZUES. Hah! Shiok.
Depends on my mood tomorrow then. =/ Fan zheng, no matter what I use, my standard is that.


Tomorrow is the bloody family day. Early in the morning, must chiong to Sentosa already. 8.30am! Argh.
And class tee is not up to my expectations. ): The colour quite fugly and the font too.But since it is 4/1's class tee, <3

Haha, reminds me. <4 = Triangle heart or. HAHAHAH.

Just dreamt of him.
Thanks a lot, brain. >=[

I'm here trying so hard not to think of him and you HAD to disrupt my plan eh? Not letting me off even in my sleep. I'm so contradicting myself, just today I had written in my chinese composition that when a person is asleep, peace would come to you. Yea right, now I believe in myself.

There is is, walking side by side with me in school. I don't know why he is wearing the school's uniform for god's sake but, still SIDE BY SIDE. Ignoring the fact that JiaMin and RueyChyi are in my dream, in that scence too, I am alone with him. Seems so nice eh? Guess what, he walks to the 2nd level, leaving me behind. TO BLOODY SEE NETBALL GIRLS TRAIN. -_____-
I <3 my dream, NOT.
That quite fits his character though. Haha. He'd kill me if he sees this.


I find it hard to explain myself when people ask me if I want a boyfriend. Yes, I want, but I don't need.
"If you don't need, why you want?"
Yea, ironic I know. I'm a complicated person, and I'm living with it.

Some people say I'm flirt.
Some say I'm fierce.
Some say I'm cute.
Some say I'm irritating.
Some say I talk a lot.
Some say I'm loud.
Some say I'm over friendly.
Some say I'm detestable.

Complicated. Me.

Been super bored these few days. With really nothing much to do on my hands.
*'s trial is coming soon, and yet my Potm still sucks. What to do. ):

A Maths test today was relatively easy, considering that I didn't study for it. Hohoho! ^^V
Now, everyday, I go mIRC and chat with the DotA peepos. Stresssssss. AND I JUST FOUND OUT Youxu is in Mi2 trials 2nd round! HOHOHO. Good luck to him!


Was ignoring this whole post for the whole night till now. Ok, back.
SOOOO, nothing's up. I was just crapping my night away on mIRC. Totally nothing to blog about. Life's been super boring recently.
Realised I need to get a desktop and a handphone soon. So do I need to get another year's supply of contact lens. Left a month only.



Super envy those girls who have a boyfriend who is uber caring and thoughtful. ): I want. I thought I have.

Back from the doctor's.

"Not pregnant right?"
I was like, wtf. AM I SO FAT THAT I LOOK PREGNANT!? Gnd.
And I regret not taking MC for tomorrow when she asked me if I tomorrow need MC a not. SianX.

Feeling bloody sick now. Why am I sick! >=[
Went home, slept, and wake up feeling sick with a fever. I bet you it's this morning's rain. The bloody rain. And I bet Qingy would be sick. She was like drenched from head to bottom. And she didn't even care at all.

Sickkkk. BUT, also nice timing. Have 2.4km run tomorrow. And achievers and double Chemistry and double Maths. HAH! All that I hate. Fever ftw! <3 Hope my fever lasts till tomorrow.


And I feel super cheated. By you. Mehhh. Need to forget soon. =/

Tired. YawnX.

Going for *'s trial. Kelly told me if I going *'s trial, she wouldn't take me even if I didn't get into *. She say don't want treat her team as back up, but well, I don't even think that way and I didn't even know I was in her team. Oh well.


And don't know why, really really miss that someone. Don't think that person even cares or. =/ But Kim is strongX. I seriously doubt there would be any happy ending out of this, because it is so obvious that well, no feelings = no feelings. CRIIEX.
Like so sibei sian luh. Mehhh. Shouldn't even have started in the first place. Hope = Die. Rofl.
BACK TO OLD LIFE KIMBERLYN.



Ya la ya la. I know deep in my heart I still holding on to the hope la. Fuck off. Baaaa.

Ok, I am in the mood to blog already.

Went down to Chambers, early in the morning. And waited for a whole bloody 3 hours to play. Like what the fuck, I almost died waiting.
Played a game with BaJiu and co. and went to PS to meet Kelly, JB and co. (I still can't remember their names). Didn't get to watch Mr. Bean so slacked around and headed to EGames FOR MATCH WITH ASTERISK.


It was like, WHAT-THE-FUCK.
1st match. Kimchi, Lich. Argh. My noob chain, noob dr, noob nova. Noob farming. Noob usage of dagger. 40minutes GG already? Or maybe lesser. ): YouXu was behind me, keep reminding me to use my dr. Z.
HuaYan, SK. Kelly, QoP. Cass, Viper. Dawn, Veno. Kelly's QoP was, not farming AT ALL. HuaYan's SK had 1 nice epi in the whole game. And, Veno, I didn't realy notice much. But Cass's Viper is strongX! :D She rocks.

2nd match. Kimchi, VS VS VS VS VS VS VS~ Finally! <3 People say I VS qiang or. Wahahaha.
Kelly, Zues. Dawn, Lich. Cass, Viper. Cloud, SF. Cloud replaced HuaYan. So obviously, due to his contributions (20 out of 30 kills of the whole team was from him) we won the match. ^^ But, we would have lost if not for Cloud, and my VS farms as slow as a snail in mid game. So nothing to be happy about.


I've got lots of things to learn. Warding, TP, DoE and new heros. =/ Gogogo Kimchi!
Asterisk trial next week. =p I think I going. But I don't know how to go. Argh. And YouXu is like, going to Malaysia. -____-
Jb was like asking me to be Mi2's manager. Rofl. Used free lan to tempt me or. =p Going to find Chambers to sponser! ^^ HappyX. Then, WAHAHA, free lan or.



As for things that happened just just just now, I don't really want to think about it. Because, for some reason, I trusted, and in the end tio hurt again. But actually, quite immune to hurt already. So now, I am just going to wait and hm, maybe figure out things for myself. Wait lor, what else can I do? =/ Pray for the best. Or I seduce people better? HAHA. I think my feelings are serious or. I am so in deep shit. =p
Anyway, I think I super strongX. If it's other girls, ta men zao jiu qu ku already. Rofl. Kim is understanding or. Thick skin-ed.

Fucking idiot ccb. I fuck don't want scold.
But damn it. Like shit lah. How you expect me to.
Like just stupid stupid like that. Fuck it. No mood. Can't believe it.

Everything is going n the wrong direction.
WHYWHYWHY!

I ♥ DotA! :D
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ or!

Going Egames/GG tomorrow. Meeting Milkies for the first time. I am like a noobX. -____- Later xia suay, whether looks or DotA skills. Sure will xia suay! Ahhh.


Poo's house later, for free DotA. Haha. Sad that I can't play at home. ):
I need to train. Train. Train. Choo choo train.
Lmao.

Although the replay of Funan's final is out, I can't watch it. Guess why?
Beacause I don't have bloody Warcraft at home.

那爱一直在心中, 直到那天才浮现. ♥

I don't know why, my mood has been bad, bad and bad recently.
I have been ignoring people, giving people attitude, and hiding to myself.

I super dui bu qi Qingy. I used to play and joker around with her, but now I am uber rude to her. Like she me 10000 things wrong. Which she didn't. I don't know. And everytime when it is my fault, she says sorry to me. She apologises to me. Fuck, I shit it don't deserve such a friend.


And I keep, keep, keep emo-ing him for don't know what. I also don't know wht happen to me. It's either it has been too long, or I am fucking paranoid. But I bloody don't want things to be like this. Life is different already. Since last week.

Happy birthday to Sheryl (Yesterday) and KUKUMarc (Today)!

:D
Marc got like 2 cakes frm 4/4 for his birthday, not give me any present for my birthday last year and STILL has the cheek to ask me for his present. -____- Too bad there's none for you! =p
His cake, the blueberry de, super yummy please. He took a slice to 4/1 and I was like "EH MARC WO YAO CHI!".
=/ Then XueLong and me like ate 1/2 of the cake in 2seconds. Pro or.

My mother. Is in a cold war with me, I think. Neutral. Not too bad, not too good.

AND THAT YOUXU WENT TO WATCH 300 TODAY. ZOMG. SMACK HIS ASS OR. First it was Poo who watched 300 in Genting. Then now it is YouXu! AHHHH, I want to watch too! But it is fucking M18. I can handle violence, ok. Mehhhh.

Changed my blog's URL because of some technical stuff or whatever you call that. Mehhhh, I miss -perfection-ism already. But well, Kimfucklyn is just as nice. :D
And I don't know what'swrong with blogger recently, but I can't seem to view some of my peepos' blogs. Their blogs all turn out to be a white blank shit of webpage. Baaaa.


I need someone to go out with me tomorrow. Afternoon till night. Who wants! :D


P.S And I need to DotA at home. I need, I need. Z.

P.P.S I want to go lan tomorrow too. ):

The people whom I wan so much to care about, does not. Am I void of feelings? Wy don't I feel a tint of care/concern. I thought this would all turn out fine, I am trying so hard to occupy myself with things to do. So I wouldn't think so much and bring myself misery.
I was afraid of this bloody feeling. Of hoping for something, and not seeing it come true. Of bearing too much hope in me, only to get disappointed in the end.

It is me who has high expectations. And fuck why do I expect so much.


Hen xing ku.
Yi ge ren.

... Pissed with myself. I feel like typing this whole post with capslock on, but I am super restraining myself.

Why the fuck I have to be so qian da luh. Beeeeeeeegggggggg mouth or. Fucktard. Must quarrel then I happy or. I can go die already. Fucking hate this feeling lah. Last time everyday like that until scared already. Sian bin, now I also same.
Someone just bloody sew my mouth up. Tie my hands up. Already say don't say le, I still fucking say say say. Say until my mouth rot. Rot liao lahhhhh. WAHHHHHH CUI LAHHHHHHH.

Yue lai yue guo fen, Kimberlyn. Too much.


... Why like that....... Knew I wouldn't be any good.....

Home from school.
Am I pro or what? Couldn't bear to go through Physics and Chemistry lesson. I would die luh.
And since when did school had a policy "Not allowed to go home unless fetched home by family members". Mdm. Anantha was telling me she could only allow me to say at the sick bay till schools ends if nobody is coming to fetch me. My god. If there're people really sick, and nobody can fetch them home. I think they'd have died in the sickbay. Stupid policy!

The clerk at the General Office is a bootlicker, I tell you.
"Ask your daddy or brother to sign the form..."
Gosh, does my Dad look that young. =p Brother some more.


I THINK MY EVIL MUM HID THE LAPTOP'S CHARGER. I am left w 1 1/2 hours of laptop usage!

Got to go back to school already, I hate.
Have not started on homework at all. =p And there's Leonard saying how no hope I am already. Haha, joker or. No need Os jiu so zhuai.

Don't know how am I going to wake up tomorrow, but oh well. It's past my sleeping time anyway. Can't fall asleep.
My eyes are going to buang sooner or later, I'm still wearing my contact lens for god's sake.


The tides have turned.

Ngee Ann Polytechnic won Funan Interschool Compy! Wahaha.
Please, my future Poly hor. ^^ Pro DotA players.

2 hour game! Tiring or. I want replay, replay, replay. If in Warcraft format, I don't care. I go people's house watch. WATCH MOVIE BRING POPCORN.


CHEERRRRRRS!

Back from KBox with Casan, Rc and Jm.
Jm is sexy or. :D Hornaye.

Was actually intending to watch a movie, but emo Casan wanted to sing. Emo > everything, I went to KBox for the 3rd time this week. Pro Kim.
Halfway through, I know I did something SUPER wrong. And, things weren't looking that great. Lucky in the end, high time we got high. Haha.


I wonder why life seems as usual. And she really shouldn't be doing this to herself.
Kimberlyn is poetic and feeling romantic this few days, it seems. Or maybe not. Hallucinations they might be, but they would stay. Because I feel at ease.



Blood trickles from her hand as she cried. The drops of tears fall drmatically onto her wrist, as frustration takes over her mind. The drops of tears found each other and mutated to form a knife. Sliding across her wrist with no sign of hesitation, she can't let go of the knife.
Yet, all I can do is to watch silently from the background, watching her kill herself slowly.
It's enough.

你就是我的天使 (Aha)
保护着我的天使
从此我再没有忧伤 (We'll have to see about that)
你就是我的天使
给我快乐的天使 (Or so you said)
甚至我学会了飞翔
飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎么样 只要有你就会是天堂 (This is too much, mocking, yes)

像孩子依赖着肩膀
像眼泪依赖着脸庞
你就像天使一样
给我依赖,给我力量 (You'd better, or so I hope)
像诗人依赖着月亮
像海豚依赖海洋 (I love dolphins, oh yes I do)
是天使,是天使
是我最初和最后的天堂 (Not 初 for sure, not sure about 后 though)


Haha, the above was just quite for my entertainment.
I seriously love how 阿信 penned 天使. The first time I listened to it, it was like bam. :D
The 依赖s were just perfect and it's relatable or.
<3

Eeeek, still alone.

SLEEP LIAO LAH SLEEP LAH KIMBERLYN. =p

I don't know how to describe how I am feeling now.

Happy + Sin-ed + Humjiiiiiii + Pessimistic + Elated + Joyful + Happy.
Weird combo or.


Was so fucking bored at home.
Made that move, and the results were zomg. I can't say that I regretted, but.. hm.
What's done is done. Fate or.
Ended. And as the mh-er says, I am in no position to decide anything, for mh-er, that is.
Giving everything a try as it would be so not Kimberlyn to be a coward and hide behind the shadows. Bring it on. :D 1v1 -du Potm, no prob. (Joking)

I know I xia suay-ed. Argh.
Trying hard not to be whom I used, used, used, usedddd to be. That's why I am not making a fuss. ^^
Kimchi ftw!
AHA! Kim. Chi. Kim, chiiiii. Nerd. =p

I am Ba Jiu's laopo. Look at my eyebags! Sian bin. And my laptop screen xia lan me lahhhhh.



The pile of nothingness loses strength and gives up trying to hover. It drops.
I thought I would be dead, and suddenly, a pair of arms pulled me away to safety. I am safe.






EDIT : ZOMG, YouXu told me that Tammy&Ice. OMG. Gosh. Cool imba jie di lian or. Jealous. Envy. :D Sweeto.

I'm telling myself this is nothing but temporary.
I'm telling myself I am strong.
I'm telling myself, just go to sleep.


EmoX. Again and again and again.
It's ironic how sometimes people get emo as nobody cares about them and when they get emo, they want to be alone. It's been a hell long of a time since I have felt this way, and I don't like it I tell you. Right into your face.
I am not prissy sissy. Neither am I jelly.

And I can't forget that. So how am I suppose to accept this. Difference of 3 days. So much?
Nobody but myself would understand this. Writing is my way of making myself feel better. However, it isn't doing it's job this time round. Slacking? Joker. Smack.
I wonder when I realised that writing is my way of venting my stress, my frustrations and my sorrows. I started with songs, I guess.
I kept writing and writing, song after song. Now, they're hidden somewhere in my heart. Right at the bottom. (After I tore the songs up one by one) Regret. How much time I spent writing those songs, I don't know. But it makes me feel better. Much, much better.

The conclusion is that you should make me sad and emo if you want me to write a song and dedicate it to you. :D

It's a wonder that I am still able to smile after this.
Mocking. What a joke.


I seriously need to talk to someone, now.




Kimberlyn doesn't have any touching stories or heartwarming tales to be told. All she has is herself, and her heart. Currently written a prologue, and is still waiting for the first chapter to be started. The epilogue might never be written.
Kimberlyn is an individual, not to be mixed with others. There is no way a new character can come in so late in the story. I doubt so.
Kimberlyn is quite an optimistic girl whom is hard to fathom. Facade, Peusdo, Fake. Relates to her. She has to protect herself, not letting her guard down at any time.
Kimberlyn needs a hand. A body. A ear. A mind. A heart. A mouth. And maybe, a shoulder. Soon. Soon I guess. She requires a lot.

Applicants, apply at risk. Beware of danger.

All of us live in lies, don't we.
So why am I so taken aback? Tired already.

Want to die lahhhhhhhh.

It has been a long time since I have written an uber emo and bias post. Since Marc, I guess. It's time.


What the shit am I getting myself into. Here I am, living my life happily. With Qingy & co. and the many girlfriends and DotA peeps that I have.

Poo, WeiQiang, Marc, YongSheng, GuanYi, Kiong, WeiYing. All of them. I was having so much fun and laughter with them during the December school holidays. Carefree, and void of problems.
There was Qingy, Jolyn and Pup, whom I got close with when school reopened. They treated me like their best buddy, and I felt super welcomed.
Of course, there was HuiXian, SuShan, XinYu, Sheryl, WeiTing, YiJing, KaiLi. After that internal class conflict, everyone opened up. That was when I finally felt some class spirit. People whom I don't used to talk to, have become friends whom I can joke around with.
Because of DotA, AhBui, Sheldon, JJ, JingDa & co. This Funan thing really gave me the chance to be able to talk to them freely, almost like friends. And now, I can even talk on MSN with AhBui over everything. ^^ I call them the joker gang, fun.

Not to forget, RueyChyi, Casan, JiaMin, Miki.
Since Sec1, we've been through conflicts, boycotts, fun times. We know each other inside out and around. They're the first ever people whom made Secondary school life enjoyable for me. Without them, I woudn't have friends. Without them, who am I?


I love all these people. I could have lived my life with all these people. And I don't see anything wrong with it. I was so contented with my life.
Contented that I am a gamer, a girl gamer in fact.
Contented that I am born with such a personality.
Contented that I always have someone to talk to no matter what.
That's when this bloody shit comes in.

There's a fine, fade line between "like" and "want to be with". Considering what a good life I am having now, and am I willing to sacrifice all of these and to maybe bring problems to myself. I have learnt my lessons and I am careful not to thread on dangerous objects. So far so good, Kimberlyn.
Call me a coward. Why should I bring any possible hurt to myself, right?


Yet, the sins. The bloody sins. Sinful. Ever heard of Sinful Love? Kimberlyn's Sinful Love.
Haha. I mock myself. I have never ever dreamt of this scenario, never have I wished for this to happen. How I hope that I was involved in it at all.
Fate? Nope. Work of humans. My philosophy.



Just when life becomes simple, you two had to disrupt my peace eh? But, what are friends for? Not complaining! We need to be happy. I am. (Waiting to hear "Me too" and "Me three")





^^V
PEACE.

Rectangular. This is a bloody rectangular one.

Z. Don't even want to be involved. Life doesn't change much though. ^^
I can't sleep, argh. Still have to wake up early in the morning tomorrow. Care for myself man. DotA tomorrow, I need it. DotA replaces chocolates! Aha. And yet there is another person who speaks of the FBTs. Sad or.

My life hasn't been so problematic for such a longgggg time.


Tears gushes out from those blood shot eyes of hers. And blood is dripping slowly, draining his oblivious self.
I stand by the sidelines, camouflaged into the crowd, experiencing both. (Nah, maybe not. Even more drama than drama!) There I was, blending in the background, with a pile of nothingness hovering above me, waiting to drop its weight onto me.

EmoX.

I seriously need someone to brainwash me or something.
Kimberlyn is a girl whom has determination (maybe) and brains. She is not stupid duh.


Jinx lost. To XinMin. Sad or. ):
Didn't get to see at all. Could have stayed at GuanYi's house today, but my bloody father don't allow me. So now, I am stuck at home. Laughing the shit out of youtube videos, alone.



Once again, emoX.

I think I need to rewrite my list on Advantages & Disadvantages of being single. Here goes nothing.

Advantages of being single :

1. No problems about your boyfriend. Whether he has ridiculous moodswings or he is super sensitive. Void of problems.
2. Jealousy is a deadly human feeling. And you do not have to cope with your boyfriend being jealous about this some other guy.
3. Feel carefree! ^^ Depend on no one but yourself.
4. Having to report to someone 24/7. (Optional)
5. For those who have more guy friends like me, it's a good thing not to have a boyfriend.
6. Shoo, lousy boyfriends. And oh yes, my standard is super high.

Disadvantages of being single :

1. You have only yourself when you need someone by your side, or when you need a shoulder for you to lie on. Too bad. (Maybe there's this guy who likes you)
2. Feel the torture of loving someone secretly behind his back, yet unable to be with him. He doesn't like you. How sad can that be. EmoX.
3. Oh shit, why does that person like you? Having someone clinging onto you 24/7 wanting you to be with him.
4. The person you like, likes your friend! ZOMG or.
5. No one to talk to, no one to cry to, no one to care for.

And now, only now. I realised that thing on your face was a mask. A mask that covers your ugliness and lets you shine in every aspect, no matter whom you are facing. A mask that you put on to inject a false hope in me. And we, are nothing but your pawns.
Maybe, it is only me.

In the end, I'm still going out tomorrow.
Pray that I don't tio gan too much. Or else I really become Tio Gan Queen liao.

WARNING: This would probably be a emo post, risk your life by reading.


Now, I can start complaining and grumbling.

E.G.A.Y.S lost. They lost what the fuck-ly and they could have won. Of course, never underestimate was a Faceless Void can do in late game, and Glenn was farming imba. And Bendemeer had to disconnect. Marshall announced Bendemeer won due to replay. Mid game. FACELESS VOID IS LATE GAME. ZOMG. Wasted or.

Next, it's either Deyi Team1 has an angel guarding them or Dunman High was unlucky. (Ok, I know it's because of RK on Leo's part but I don't care) Dhs was doing quite good in early game though. How the hell did Deyi manage to win. Argh. I didn't get to watch. Moving on then.

Cassandra totally pawned me. Practically chopped me, turned me inside out and still manage to put me back into pieces so that I can be a lightbulb. =p Seriously, regretted leaving Funan to leave with them. Except for the movie part. Stomp the Yard totally rocks. ^^ Though I think the both of them didn't enjoy it as much as I did. Blah. Gay-ed.

5mins into the movie, Leonard texted me and said sorry to me, which was like, "Huh?". He didn't forget to mention to me that I was noisy and squeaky. Hello! How would Kimberlyn ever be SQUEAKY!? -.- I think I was so gayed by Casan that I went crazy. Oh well. Deyi won Dhs.

Spent like 1+ hour at the bridge outside Esplanade. Crapping. Watching the 2 jokers emo. And in the end being quite emo myself. Lesson learnt: Being single is still better.


Advantages of being single:

1. I can go where ever I want without having to report to anyone except for my parents.
2. No stupid unreasonable quarrels to handle.
3. I can flirt. HAH. Nah, joking. Make that, I can know more friends.
4. All I need to care is about myself and need not worry about the other person. __

Disadvantages of being single:

1. Fuck, he doesn't like me.
2. Fuck, he likes me.
3. Fuck, that bitch.
4. Fuck, I need someone.

That's about it actually. Single ftw.
It's not that a person is born stupid. It's a person's choice to whether she wants to let her feelings to be cheated of. In my opinion, that is.

Emo yeee-mo
:Being in a state where he/she wants to be alone and feels sad, not wanting to open his/her mouth and feeling uber down.

In this gloomy night, you pushed the dark clouds away from yourself and gave me a glimspe of your bright self. And I lit up. Yet, was it that twinkling star, that other star that made you turn your back away from me, letting the clouds rush back to cover your back, hiding yourself from me. I dimed.

Didn't get to blog these few days as home's noob internet was down.

KBoxed today with Qingy. She was telling me how much she went to KBox this week, like 3 times. Lol. KBox freak. I think the person at KBox plaza would be friends with her soon. =p


Funan-ed a lot this week. Monday was E.G.A.Y.S, which they won as expected and today, Jinx. Whom also won. ^^ Cheers to AMKSS.

Watching Jinx play was like watching a comedy show. Jokers. :D
And E.G.A.Y.S was just pro and pro. Like so imba that WeiQiang is now obsessed over Edwin. Totally. Can't wait to see E.G.A.Y.S tomorrow. I am going to frequent Funan so much that I think my mother would scold me sometime or another. Like, maybe tomorrow. Running out of money soon too. Welcome anyone who are willing to sponser me anything. ^^


P.S ZhiYuan looks SUPER like YuanTai from Eastyle please. I don't know how many times I was taking double looks at him.

P.P.S POOOOOOOO COME BACKKKKKKKKK SOOONNNNNN~~~~~~ :D Bootlicking ftw!

P.P.P.S Went to GuanYi's house and viewed past OM videos. Stupid dumb videos that we took to humour ourselves. Missed it. Like hell.

My mum called me when I was on the way to Chambers this morning and she said some things which really made me feel super guilty. Like, I should work harder in my school work and not slack. It really made me think back to the time when I got back my results for my O level Chinese. A1 please. Look at it uber shuang. 1 A1 can make me so hapy already, imagine if I had 5 A1 for my Os. ^^
Shiok or.



Ok, so I was typing this post halfway and I stopped for 1/2 hr. Was frigging busy talking to Leonard, WenKai and AhBui at the same time. What do these 3 guys have in common?
DotA ftw!!! :D
Hybird lost t dN, which was super sad because I thought they would win.
Going to watch E.G.A.Y.S, Jinx and Leonard's team (Qingy & Casan's going with me! Hohoho). Hope all of their matches get broadcasted!
But I think they wouldn't want their matches to be broadcasted, pressure^1000!

Hope that all of them can at least get to the 2nd round! ^^



P.S Marc and I did not quarrel AT ALL when playing DotA today! :D N1. Hohoho. But maybe it's due to the fact that we were not in the same team most of the time. Z.

P.P.S I stared at the computer in Chambers for a straight whopping 12 hours. Pro or.

My dearest Eastyle! Hohoho. They rock please!



^^

Back from KBox with RC and Qingy. Super fun!
Was quite unwilling to go at first as I was very tired and sleepy in the morning. Almost died of exhaustion, and I don't know what possessed me to go to KBox in the end.

Enjoyed it a lot a lot. Though halfway, RC got a little emo, but still she went back to normal and we went super high. :D
I was uber happy when I realised that there's songs from 翼势力!!!
Hohoho. We kept going "Shalalalalalala~". For some reason, we were super high during the last half hour. =p
Maybe go again next week! Heh.



<3 XiaoCao :D

Just when I was about to push those irritating thoughts out of my mind, she has to go and ruin my mood.

Seriously, of course I know how Poo & co. treated me when I was being boycotted. I'm the nuu zhu jiao. And if I didn't know, Poo & co. told me about it when peace was restored.
How did she helped me when Poo was scolding me? Because I think I would have helped her when Poo was scolding her too. So that makes us equal or? I don't know.

It's not like I didn't treat her as a friend too. How much she and I have in common, I forgot. And during that period of time, I treated her like a friend, I liked spending time with her. Too much, so much that it caused RC and me to quarrel.


And there was the time when I was disapointed in her. When I didn't want to get into any quarrels with you over drama, I shut up and listened to her. I didn't utter a single word of complain to her because I trusted she knew her stuff.
I admit I was super cold in the way I talked to her and responded to her. That was the best I could go. I didn't want to quarrel nor debate over drama, so I just kept quiet and listened to orders. I tried my best for the drama, trying to improve it when she was not around. Nevertheless, my ideas were not really being recognised and it sucks being questioned like I have done something to sabotage the drama. The attitude is what makes me disappointed.

I'm not in the right to comment on a whole lot of things. Except for those which concerns me. For those which doesn't, it's for me to know, and for her to find out.



As for the foul word(s) that I typed in that particular post, it wasn't even referring to anyone or anything. I type as I go and there it was. And there she thought I was referring to her. Yea, I think it might have seemed like I was frigging cursing her.
No choice. Can't help it. I am a foul mannered girl, as she might think.


EDIT: It surprises me to realise that how much we have in common. Like how we seemed equal. Equivalent. It surprises me even more that we're in this fugly state. I guess the thing that differs between us is so huge that it has caused such a big hole between us.

My sister has serious mental problem. She can be crying and begging me to let her use the computer in 5minutes and can be crying and hitting me to let her use the computer in the next 5minutes. After which she would shut up and hide at a corner of the room. Then the process would be repeated over and over again or 2 hours.

Torture.



And I was reminded by Marc that I'm a Cyborg but that's Ok is NC16.
So was I reminded by myself that OotP movie is also NC16.
Shit it.

Sheldon = joker. -.-


Mum was still in a bad mood today. Scold non-stop, like machine gun. Z.
Talked a lot about DotA with Kiong in class, and miraculously didn't get scolded by any teachers. Hohoho.
I need DotA soon I think. I am getting so frigging bored with school. But crapped damn lot with YiJing about HarryPotter today! Uber happy because she supports Dramione too! ^^ She introduced to me a damn fun website too. Heh.


And there was RC and me talking about who we want to have sex with when we grow up.
Tom Felton, thank you. :D

My mum is super not happy with my results. And before she can even begin her talk on how I can't be compared to the children of other people, I left.
I lothe it when she always compares me with other people. Why can't she just understand that I am me. Well, if she is this dissatisfied with her daughter, she can jolly well find another one. Seems like I am worthless in her eyes.

"People's children score all A1. All work hard, go back home straight away after school everyday and study."

Yea? That sounds like robots to me. Sad to say though, I'm a human being.

I frigging got a 32 for my L1R5.

Kill me, or my parents would. Or maybe Marc/YongSheng/anyone who hates me would.

For some reason which I do not understand why, YongSheng is not regarding me as his friend anymore. Am I suay or. The problem is I don't know whether he is joking with me or is he serious.

Next time I don't want to joke around anymore. Looking at the problems it has given me. Z^infinity.
So now, I am currently in a cold war with Marc & YongSheng. Don't underestimate how dejected I am to not be able to talk to them. I am going crazy soon soon soooonnnnnn.


Physics later.
I hate Physics. & I can't wait for Saturday. I am in serious need of DotA.
DotA cheers me up. :D

I can't read my blog and some other people's blogs! Ah, cannot open at all. What to do. Z.


Ate lots of bak kwa yesterday and today. I think I have added a few more kilograms to my already outstanding weight. =p
But I am SUPER happy, because I ran 3 rounds of school in 12++ minutes. Wahahaha. Never before ok. Now I am beginning to think that finally I might be able to pass my 2.4 by >1min. Hohoho.

And I can't believe AhBui is considering to use me for the Funan competition. Gosh or.
AhBui is smartX. Lol.

Headache headache. Sleeping with my contact lens on gives me headache!

My CM tyco triple killed today. WAHAHA, shiok or. On the other hand, my Warlock was like SHIT. How the hell am I going to go for the trials if I can't use Warlock. Urgh. Can't expect me to use VS in the 1st round. -.-


Marc was exceptionally irritating today, he kept on xia lan me for don't know what reason.And he made me so pissed off with him that I am refusing to uttera single syallable to him now. Until he talks to me first.
He kept going on and on and on about my bloody DotA, about WeiQiang (yes, peace with him already) and about Dave's Tinker. Almost left game, but remembered I don't so xia lan better. Hah. Marc better say sorry to me for scolding me. To think that we agreed to try to not quarrel.


The important thing is, Casan actually msn-ed me to ask me how to play DotA. Rofl. There must be something in Leonard that YongSheng doesn't have. =p Too bad YongSheng duh. Kiss your BearBear instead ba.
Hohoho.

But it was nice of my <333 DOtA peeps to wait for me to finish my Chemistry remedial before heading to Chambers, considering the remedial ended at 4pm. Hohoho.:D Love my DotA peeps.

Went out with Jolyn today.She bought her Levis shoes because the Pony one doesn't have her size. The Pony one was fugly big luh. Like size11 or what? =p


Walked from Pennisula to Suntec, then from Suntec to MarinaSquare.
I swear my legs were going to break. Window shopped a lot though. Ah, then now I gian so many many tops. Z, what to do, no money. -.-

GhimYang and ErYang came find us (actually, it was more of finding Jolyn than me, but oh well) to look for hats.
I super embarrassed myself in front of them! I thought I lost my phone and started scolding vulgar like crazy, when the phone was in my clutch the whole time. How stupid can I get! Gosh, damn xia suay. Then GhimYang and ErYang were like looking at me with weird faces. Argh.
But it was funfunfun today! :D


Saw a hell lot of people today, Mindy, Alvin & 4/3 co., Ronald(hehe, who was that beside him?) and JADE SEAH. She is frigging tall can! Like her hip is at my waist. So jealous.



P.S 3 cheers as I finaly have internet access at home. Shiok or?

P.S.S Die WeiQiang.

Chambers-ing. :DDD

Super happy. United or what please! Hohoho. Then my Warlock, better than my Chen by like 100000x.
And that Poo says I am lying that my Warlock is better than Chen. -.- Say I'm like her. Walao. Can die.


Was in quite a bad mood just now because I didn't get to play in the match with AhBui.
In the end, they (not AhBui) lost. Wahaha, it was quite evil and mean of me to laugh at them. But I don't care. :D

Lol, and Ron very cute. He say my Warlock still can when the others all scold me.






Z, tio owned with QoP. Sucks.

Really cannot stand her already. What right has she to interfere into the businesses of other people and what right does she have to shout and scream at people like people are born to let her be shouted at.
She want to shout ask her go and buy a soft toy everyday go and shout at the toy.

Want to talk don't know how to talk softly or.
Must shoutttt and scremmmmmm, we'll all go deaf.


It's not like I have any right to scold her as well, since I didn't help my friend.
Xia lan fucker.