I feel like I dui bu qi a lot of people today.
YouXu, WeiQiang, GuanYi, Trina, Mummy, Poo..
I'm so sorry people. Espescially to YouXu. Suddenly I like tell everyone I anti him.
Then suddenly I don't anti him. Ahhh, he gives me mood swings.
Ahahaha. Sound so wrong.
Ah, just sorry.

Ya, ok. Just realised how fucking idiotic I was a few minutes ago. Thanks to Poo.
Ok, sorry. Ok.

Sorry YouXu. Drag your name in.
Sorry Casan. Remind you of reality and your sadness.
Sorry WeiQiang. Keep venting my frustrations on you.
Sorry GuanYi and Poo. Ignored you guys when you tried to cheer me up.


Sorry.

AND WHAT THE HELL I PISSED CASAN OFF. SHE SAY I PROVOKE HER BUT I NEVER. I'M JUST TELLING HER WHAT I SEE.

OK, I AM SUCH A FUCKING DIRECT AND LOUD BITCH SO I SHOULD JUST SHUT MY MOUTH UP AND ISOLATE MYSELF FROM EVERYONE. I KNOW THAT SHE IS FEELING DAMN TERRIBLE NOW AND STRUGGLING AND COPING WITH ALL THAT BLOODY CRAP STUFF. YET I STILL AM MAKING HER ANGRY AND MAKING HER SAD. AND IF SHE AND YONGSHENG REALLY GOT WHAT SHIT ASSHOLE THINGS HAPPEN I REALLY WILL GO CRAZY. FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK LA! HWAK LA.




DONT TALK TO ME, YOU BETTER DON'T TALK TO ME. DON'T YOU DARE TO ASK ME WHAT HAPPEN BECAUSE I ALSO DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPEN. ACTUALLY I KNOW BUT I AM JUST ACTING BLUR. AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT. I DON'T KNOW. WHATEVER. GO DIE KIMBERLYN. NOOB ASSHOLE FUCKER.





AND NOW I PISSING WEIQIANG OFF IN THE PHONE. DAMN. I DON'T WANT MAKE HIM ANGRY. DAMN DAMN DAMN. I DON'T WANT MAKE ANYONE ANGRY. I DON'T WANT. I DON'T WANT TO AHHHHHH. FORGET IT.

FUCK, I AM THE GUO JI VS NOT POOPOOPOO YOU NOOB BLIND GAY YOUXU! I BLOODY HATE YOU!!! YOU AN LIAN POO FOR A VERY LONG TIME! I KNEW IT I KNEW IT! YOU ARE GAYYYY!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
I AM IN A BLOODY FUCKING BAD MOOD NOW AND WHATEVER! BO CHUP BO CHUP! HWAK KYUUUUUUUUU ALLLLLLLLLLL!!!!

RAH, MY VS AND QOP AND SA AND WHATEVER DOTA SUCKS! OK, FINE.
TOMORROW, O2JAM.

FunFunFun!! (: Escape-d early in the morning till around 3.30pm. Met Rachel, YongSheng and 6D people in the morning at Escape. YongSheng sticked with us for the whole day while Rachel and the others went off after a while.
Omigosh, everyone is so pampering Gina! XiaoMeiMei here, MeiMei there. Haha. They still keep asking her if she want to eat or drink anything. She's like the princess! Ah, jealous. They never ask me want to eat or drink anything. Ahaha~
Everyone says my mother is a fun and friendly person while I think she is going crazy. (: She was like asking Chmel to take photos of everyone so she can remember their names. And she finally saw Marc's face. Hahaha. She still say that Marc looks si wen. She's blind.

Oh, and the RaisingDevil lost his phone today. I feel so guilty, I asked him to go to Escape and he ended up losing his phone there. ): And because of that Trina didn't get to enjoy the trip. Double kill! In the end, I still go Chambers with XoC and leave my mother and my sisters at Pasir Ris.
And today's DotA sucks too. I suck. ):



BUT TODAY IS A FUN DAY, I ENJOYED IT A LOT AND WE'RE GOING TO HAVE CRAZY DOTA SESSION TOMORROW!

I don't know what happen, seriously.
Out of a sudden, Poo gets angry and don't want to be Chieftain anymore. What should we do? A clan without a Chieftain? All I know is that it all started with GuanYi saying how WeiQiang should be Chieftain (jokingly) and Poo went crazy..
But I feel so bad.

We are all joking and everyone still treats Poo as the Chieftain. Everytime we joke around and tease him, in the end we would still listen to him when we are playing DotA.
Without Poo, XoC seems to be missing something..


I really don't want XoC to fall...

Kind of had a XoC meeting yesterday. Change of clan name, you see. We actually wanted to change the whole name. But weird things like, Dotz, Au, Sodium, Feng, Jue.. etc. came. And we realised how nice XoC sounds. Just that XoC stands for Xtreme Ownage Clan, but now we changed it to Axis of Chaos! Nice? (: I love it.
Finally, we're going to create clan in BNet. Finally, I say. Thursdaythursday!
I'm quite happy with my QoP.

Today is a home day! For once I spent the whole day at home. Ahaha. Conference with XoC members for the wholeeeeeeee day, from morning till now. And maybe later also, and after midnight still. Wait till Poo comes back from Malaysia! Conference like crazy. I'm seriously
having so much fun with them and we're going to Escape tomorrow! Weeeeeeeeeee~
They came my house to cook lunch yesterday, I just remembered. GuanYi is such a good chef. Omigosh. YummyYum food, ya! Happy life.

Oh ah! And God is finally back from Thailand. Miracle he didn't become ren yao. (:



Escape tomorrow. DotA the day after. 2/2 gathering on Friday! Kimberlyn is a busy girl.

I love XoC. (:
I feel damn at ease with them and they can make me laugh no matter what. Even though sometimes they may piss me off, but in the end they will also cheer me up. Chieftain and Vice-Chieftain are the best. Them + Me = Happy"Three"Friends.
Chambers is XoC's home. My second home. Find me there or any of the XoC members whenever you want to find us!

I feel damn bonded with them. Like what GuanYi told me just now, the few of us are like stuck together like super glue. We have to see each other everyday or else we will not feel at ease. We have to conference every night, or else we will feel damn bored.

DotA brought us together and I am thankful for that.

A lot of things happened this few days. To me and to the people around me.
I realised I may like him. And I went crazy. I know he don't like me though. Because he treats every girl the same. For all I know, he may even ignore my existence at some point of time.

Talked to Cavan and WeiCang on the phone yesterday. Donkey and Monkey. Haha. Got to know them at Chambers and I think they're very fun people. Though quite AhBeng and Poo they all don't quite like them, but I guess I have my right to make my own friends. (: Independent girl.

Yesterday saw Casan and I got nothing to say to her anymore. She very hiong, too hiong for me. Haha. Her problems is 100000 times worse than me, so I don't think I have any right to complain about my problems. When God takes something away from you, he'd give you something in return.

Ahhh, GOD.
Reminds me of YouXu. That bloody noob. Miss miss. Haha. (Copy Casan.) I miss DotA-ing with him! Later he come back from Thailand become ren yao.



A couple gets together here as another is breaking up somewhere else in the world. Casan reminded me that I told her that before. (: Clever me.

You are such a flirt. Ahhh, I must be blind. BLIND BLIND BLIND!
Why must I torture myself and land myself into this kind of situation. Roar. Ain't I stupid?
Give up Kimberlyn, give up. You tell other people to give up but you don't give up when it happens to you. Stupid you stupid you stupid stupid you!
And I mean YOU!

You don't like me, don't you.
RAH.

So it is me who is thinking too much.

STOP FLIRTING YOU BLOODY IDIOT @!$@#!%#!@#$^!$@%^#$!^%@#$^%!@$#!#&*!@%&$*%@&$^@&#%$@^%$&@#@(*$^@$@#^$%*@#%^$)&@_%&@$*(%^)&@$%_(&@$_%(*+@$_%^_@$^%&@$*%_&@$_%^_@$^%_@$^%^&@%$&^!^@#)*!%$)&*@^#$&%@&)!#$^*@(#%$&%@#_($&_(@#&$_^&!#@%$&!@#^*%$&)@#^$()^@#*(#(&%)@$(&%()@$&%({@&${(%$u(@#&@()#&*%+(_@!!!!!!!!!!


Ok, I am officially crazy.
I am so infatuated with you! ROAR! How the hell am I going to stop myself from feeling all of this bloody shit. This is not supposed to happen and I am so sure nothing good will come out of it because it is all my wishful thinking right from the start.
Infatuation is such a bad thing and I don't want it to happen on me. Either like, or don't like. Tell me what the hell do you want. I think you know I am talking about you here. Yes, hello hello. Ahhhh.. the horror.

Kimberlyn is finally going bonkers.

RULES:
1. Pick your birth month.
2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold the ones that best apply to you.
4. Put your month in a comment.
5. Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a journal cut
6. Forward this to 5 people.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes (Yes, yes, very much). Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions (Except for maybe when I'm playing DotA and games). Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships (Somewhat). Systematic.

Ah, I think I like you.
I think you like me, I think you don't. Sometimes yes, sometimes no.
Morning yes, afternoon no.
AHHHHH~
Being single is great.
But I keep thinking too much and dreaming about the impossible.
Ah, do you like me too?




Give me a hint, tell me something soon.
Confirmation/rejection.

Bad mood. PMS. Mood swing.


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Supposed to be out with Poo, BaJiuKiller and Shifu. I told my mother 12am reach home.
"Ni gen wo shi yi dian dao jia, yao bu ran wo bu gei ni men jing."
"Shi er dian la, I take bus very long."
"I say 11 means 11. Or else you don't come back."
What the fuck. She spoil my whole mood. I have never felt that she was so irritating before. I know she's stressed and such but that doesn't give her the right to say I'm useless, say I nothing but rubbish. If she doesn't know how much that hurts, she's the useless one.


My life's in chaos today. Too many problems. Too many confusions and misunderstandings.
RueyChyi, it's my fault. Not HuanQing's.

-.- *Knock head onto the wall*
Kimberlyn Kimberlyn Kimberlyn.
You chiong-ed out with Poo, BaJiuKiller and Alvin for 5 days already. Today is the 5th day. Those 3 are the ones I have been seeing for the past 5 days non-stop. Of course, there're others who hang out with us for like, 4 days too. Like, GuanYi and Melo~ (:
And I have been talking on the phone till very late in the night with Poo and BaJiuKiller these few days. Now I'd feel weird if I am not talking to them on the phone at night. Ahhh, sweet.

It seems weird that I feel closer to my DotA peeps whom I knew this year than to the people whom I have known for 3 years. Maybe it's the fact that my personality doesn't suit my girlfriends, and thus, misunderstanding occur. I have been trying to make myself clear for the past year, but nothing came out of it. And seriously speaking, I'm quite tired of trying to prove to them that I treat them like buddies. Trusting and not betraying is much better isn't it?
I have given up trying to persuade people to see who I am. It's up to them. People who are willing to accept me can see who I am really and can trust me totally. DotA peeps, HuanQing, Chmel. Yea. That's it.
Openly speaking, I'm not sure if Casan, RueyChyi, JiaMin and Miki are counted as my buddies. Because sometimes, I feel the opposite. But I love them, yup. I still trust them enough to tell them my problems.


One more thing, I am a whole myself. I do not think I am obliged to stick with someone for the rest of my Secondary school life. I mean, yes, piority. But I still can make new friends and hang out with them right? That doesn't mean that you guys are being replaced in my heart. Just hope you'd understand that. And everyone will change at some point of a time. Kimberlyn starts to wear skirts! Shock shock, pow pow, bam! I am changing and I admit to that. So, you should too. For the better.

Friends forever.

Kimberlyn you think too much.
Nobody likes you for God's sake.

Yesterday :
Out with Poo, BaJiuKiller, GuanYi, Chmel, XianNeng, Tommy and Alvin. Damn damn damn fun! (: I was kind and treated the guys except for XianNeng to XingWang HongKong Cafe's toasted bread and Mango Ice. Frigging nice, everyone should go there and try it. It's opposite Cineleyoisure's Pastamania. The seats are very comfortable too.
Then we went to KBox. Actually wanted to go for movie, but BaJiuKiller didn't want to catch Casino Royale. So we chiong-ed KBox till night. Took lots of photos and everyone went high. Damn fun. Feel bonded with my dear DotA peeps. MuahMuah~
After KBox we went to walk along the streets of Orchard Road. Quite pretty, I can say.
And and I ended my day with a conference with BaJiuKiller and Poo till 3am. (:

Today :
I was supposed to go to work today, but that "nice" boss of mine text me in the afternoon and told me I am terminated. How nice of him. -.-
So well, went to Chambers with Kiong, BaJiuKiller, BaJiu, Poo and Alvin. DotA-ed with Cavan a.k.a Bloodseeker and his friend. I totally got owned today. ):
Met HuanQing after that and she told me some things which made me feel very sick and tired. Nothing I do will change their opinion.

I think I am DotA-ing too much. I went DotA today again. $9.
Ahhhh. But is YouXu ask me go, of course I will go. Must give him face!
Today is so frigging fun. Espescially the last match with Calvin (???). SA owns!! Gg ownage! Wahahaha.

Suddenly I feel sad. I was sitting at the bus stop waiting for my bus. I didn't know how long I sat there. I think I missed at least 2 buses. I totally got no goal, no purpose in my life now I think. Then I remembered how my Mummy scolded me yesterday for not helping out in housework and anything. I need a new life.


And I just pissed Marc off in Msn. Guess I was a little overboard.
Hwak kyuuu Kim.

I was chatting with WeiQiang on Msn when I suddenly remembered something Poo said at McDonalds when we were having our dinner.
He was talking talking talking, and wanted to scold WeiQiang or don't know whoever and he went, "Hwak kyu!".

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha~ He meant to say "Fuck you" but his mouth swollen until like hotdogs so he pronouced it wrongly. We laughed until we got 6 pecs.

And WeiQiang and Poo keep making fun of Raffles big eyes. I didn't realise that Raffles's eyes are soooo big until he sat opposite me in McDonalds today. Now I finally know why they call him BaJiu. (:

I like DotA-ing with the guys.
They make me feel as though they're my brothers and we all come from a big family. having fun together, talking and playing together. We don't even get offended when we scold each other, because we know we're just joking.
I knew all this guys through DotA, and got to know even more friends through DotA. That's why I love DotA. The guys made me love DotA more and more and I'll never stop. (:

DotA day! (:
Didn't perform up to standards today though. Played from around 1pm to 11pm. With breaks in between of course. My money, my precious money! Lucky Poo gave me $10 and GuanYi gave me $2! So good, my sugar daddys. THANKS!

I tried to play O2Jam today, but I realised what a bloody noob I am in that. I think I'd be better if I stick to DotA. Haha. Chmel's working hard in DotA! She's using Lich now! Woohoo~ And oh yes Chmel, he's cute. Better in real life!


DOTA AGAIN TOMORROW WITH YOUXU~

Oh my God, oh my God.
OH MY GAWD, I AM BACK FROM OUTWARD BOUND! (:
I miss DotA soooo much.

I thought OBS was supposed to help people to slim down but I realised it isn't so! Ahhhhhh.
The food at OBS were over my expectations. Even the food rations for the sea and land expeditions! I was practically eating every chance I had, it's no wonder I got fatter. -.-

It is now after that I've gone trough OBS that I realised how right everyone who has been telling me OBS is fun was. I was very tired of the whole camping thing on the first day. All I could think of was going home! But slowly things began to get interesting. (:

Went for kayaking and high elements on Tuesday.
Completed 2 elements with Tommy and felt so happy! It was the second day I knew Tommy, actually, that was the first day I actually had a proper conversation with him. At first I just asked him if he wanted to do the high elements with me because I needed someone to do it with me. I was damn glad he agreed. The feeling of standing on top of the element and shouting "For Kurt" was so great that we chiong-ed another element in the last 10 minutes, and succeeded. WOOOO~

Third day, my watch, Kurt, set off to our campsite on boat. By ROWING the boat. My team of 8 people rowed for about 6 hours befoe we finally reached our camping gound. I love being out in the sea and just rowing the boat carefreely. (: Halfway through our journey, there was this HUGE thunderstorm and everyone had to row furiously to the nearest wall and grab onto the ropes. One of my group members, Gordon was shivering like crazy, as if he was possessed by a ghost or something like that. JiaYing shouted and Tommy and I rushed from the back of the boat to the front of the boat to hug Gordon. Give him warmth, you see. Gordon kept vomiting even after the rain had stop though. Damn scary.

After the sea expedition, was the land expedition. The bloody land expedition which caused me to have 2 great blisters on my toes. The backpack was heavy, the road was rocky and everyone was tired. Belinda (our instructor) said that she was quite disappointed with us when we had reached the campsite as we were not really motivated during the whole day. I felt so bad and guilty. ): But oh well, dinner by the sea was great. MAGGIE MEE. XiaoMei can cook such YUMMYYUMYUM maggie mee!
What I really enjoyed was the scenary. There were so many many many stars that would never ever appear in Singapore. The sea was prettypretty and opposite us was Singapore. I could see the HDB flats and the lights in every house. I was lying on the rocks there and staring out at the night sky, thinking of my God. (See, see YouXu! I got think about you!) Lol.

And so the last day of OBS is today. We woke up very early to pack things up and rushed back to the OBS building. Happy happy.
All I can say is that I've learnt a lot from this camp. I've learnt things from Belinda and from my watch mates. I learnt how to appreciate the simple things around me now more and nothing can replace simplicity.



I'll miss everyone from KURT.
Jason, JiaYing, Maurice, Tommy, Sandy, Dahpne, ChiouTong, WeiTing, Shaf, Elliotz, Gordon, Kevin, Joevan, SzeHao and XiaoMei I LOVE YOU GUYS!! (:

Though I told myself that I will not play DotA today, I still did.
): $9.
BUT I OWNED TODAY! HAH! Actually, not quite. Just that I feel that I'm above my normal standards today. Maybe it's due to the fact that I'm not playing with Kiong and YongSheng they all. Played with Poo, WeiQiang and others. Chmel played too! She's improving a little a little as days go by. Soon, she'll overtake me! Ahhhh..

Now WeiQiang keep saying I'm XoC's star player. Hah! As if. He also keeps saying I'm SA pro. But Poo keeps saying I'm no good. Who to believe now? Haha.


I've got OBS for the next 5 days. So I'll not be contactable. But I guess OBS would be very fun. With all the adventure stuff and such. I will miss everyone! Espescially the DotA people. I have been hanging out with them more lately, and I think they are very good people who are friendly to everyone. I'm glad that they do not outcast me and treat me like brotherbrothers!
WOOOOOOOO~

(:

P.S This is my 100th post! Celebration!

I went DotA like fuck today again! Around 7 hours too. But this time more expensive because I was in the VIP room. Reached Chambers around 10 and stayed there till 7 plus. I think I can camp there and stay there overnight le.
Maybe one day I shall lie to my Mummy that I go my friend's house to stay but i actual fact I go camp at Chambers with Chmel! (: I think she'll like that. *Uh-hum, uh-hum*

Spent soooooo much money today. ): I think my pay for this week is gone. GONE! ALL GONE!Ahhh, regret. DotA-ed a lot this week, eh. Think like 3 times. Make that 3 x $7 = $21. I think I spent more than that on DotA. But it's worth it! I'm starting to get hooked onto DotA all over again. There was this period of time when I didn't want to touch DotA at all. Maybe because of the thing between Marc and Jonathan. But oh well, I'm glad I still love DotA! (: Though I'm still as bad at it.



YouXu is a fun and cute guy who is good to every girl and boy. I think he treats everyone the same way and he has a way with girls. It's in his blood, man! Haha. God teaches me DotA and gives me suggestions. But.. His suggestions are for pros. I'm not one. ):
But WeiQiang says I must have faith in myself, so I shall listen to WeiQiang and listen to GodYouXu! Next hero, Warlock.



MARC YOU ARE SO GONNA GET OWNED BY ME!
GG!


Went to eat at Sumo's House after DotA and then to the arcade at Jubilee. Played the press press game that's something like O2Jam with Chmel and QiYong. Found out that QiYong has a hidden talent in it! Haha.



P.S Chmel's and YouXu's O2Jam is soooo good. ): I want to be as good as them too.
P.P.S There are people even better in O2Jam than Chmel and YouXu! Jealous.
P.P.P.S I need more money for DotA!!!!

Feeling so tired. But happy and satisfied somehow.
I went out with JiaMin in the afternoon to town for shopping. Shopping with her is so fun but tiring! I think we soent about half an hour trying to find the right cap for her. She kept trying and trying on the caps till the salesperson came and gave us some comments. JiaMin's head is really so damn small. Almost all the caps looks enormous on her head.

Bought a ring which is so L-O-V-E-L-Y for only $3.90! Happy happy. I bought 2 racer-backs from Baleno too. 2 for $20. Quite cheap right? To think that my mother actaully said questioned me why I bought such expensive clothes. I was like.. WTF.


I feel fat whenever I go out and see those flat tummy people. ):

I shall go and sleep now because I have DOTA tomorrow at EIGHTTHIRTY. Horror.

Nothing I say and do will be enough to make it up to you. There is nothing that I can say and do to make it up to you.
What you want is something that I think would not be good for us, though you do not think so. I have practically forced you into this situation and I can't do anything to change things back, I admit. This is the first time in my life I have ever disappointed someone so much and let someone down to this extend that I cannot stand myself. I try to imagine myself back to that short period of time and I realised nothing would probably come out of it. If I were to agree, sometime later, the same thing would happen all over again and I'm sure both of us do not want that to happen.
I can jolly well agree to what you want but I won't. Because I know I won't make you happy and I won't be 100% committed.


You're begging me and I'm begging you.
I held on to the phone after you hung.
And listened to the telephone's sound.
While thinking about what I've done, I imagined you suffering.
That won't happen again, as that's not what I want.
2 ways.
Yours and mine.
But yours would lead you to be hurt in the end too and I would be selfish and untrue.
Mine is not the best though. You still have to suffer it through. I brought this upon you and nothing I say would make you feel better about it.



Crying wouldn't solve anything but at least I would have the courage to face this after that.
I'm sorry I can't ease your pain the way you want me to.

I'm back in a happy mood! Fast eh? (:
Actually, I'm having food therapy now. Although I know I'm not supposed to do this but I think for today I need my food therapy. (Going to go for morning jog with Chmel tomorrow morning anyway.)

Currently indulging 2 slices of creamy durian cake full of durian wonderness.
If only I could install my K800i PC suite in my Daddy's laptop. Then I could take a photo of what is included in my food therapy and make everyone drool.
Ahhhh, the sweet and creamy taste lingers in my mouth.

HAPPY!

P.S QiYong reminded me to write in my post that he'd be wearing a blazzar tomorrow.

If being happy is 100%, I guess my mood percentage now would be -100%.

I shall be a kind girl and use the word dislike instead of hate.
I DISLIKE DAVID QUEK. He's such a faker.
"Do you have any appointments today?"
"No."
"See, all your friends got appointments already."
"__." (I didn't show this to him."
So what if Joyce, WeiLing and HuanQing have countless of appointments upder their belts? It's his bloody fault that he's so narrow minded and keeps giving me areas that are so popular. Why can't he be cleverer like John and do somewhere like Bedok Reservoir? All in all, he just thinks that I don't have what it takes to be a telemarketer.
HELLO~ telemarketing is ALL about luck my dearest double chin-ed uncle.
I think I'd just wait for him to sack me now.
But I'll miss talking to Jeremy (:(:(: and Jamie during work though, they so fun. ):



I'm so tired, but yet I don't feel like sleeping.
I shall go and have my shower first and continue cursing David's double chin to triple somemore.

It is everything that I have done that lands me into this situation that I am in now. I have let you down and even maybe hurt you.
But do you have to remind me about how wrong and how much I have let you down? I am in no position to say this though. I admit that I was quite pissed with you when you said what you said. When I think carefully about it though, I realised you had all the right in the world to do that, or maybe even do things worse than that.

You did not kill me or scold me after I made my decision, and I should have thanked you and God for that.



And for you, however, I am sorry to say that I am not going to entertain your emotional thoughts and feelings about me anymore because when you had the chance to tell me about them, you did not. But now when I am not interested, you want to tell me. Sad to say that I do not really give a damn about how you feel about me anymore because I do not care whether you like/love/hate me.
I know I am harsh in saying this, but it is what I have got to say to free me and youself. It has been a long time since that day and it is time you let go. For the sake of me and yourself. I'm sorry.

Windows Live Messenger requires Windows XP or later. Please try again when you have update your settings.

-.- Thanks a lot.
At least I successfully downloaded KaiXuan's file.
The song was addictive. I was like bobbing my head, couldn't stop myself.


Got to go to the clinic later with Chmel for a check up for OBS. What a waste of money.

Downloading fetish.

I am so fed up by Direct X now. Mayb it's my daddy's laptop that's no use, but why can't I download that bloody Direct X!? I could download Audition's client and patcher. But I just can't download Direct X. -.-

I give up on Audition.
Next I am going to try to load the song KaiXuan sent me and download Windows Live Messenger. They better be download-able.

Went out early in the morning for the job interview at Mac Cafe.
But last minute I didn't want to go because Chmel and XianNeng was late and I want to DOTA. (:

7 hours of continuous DOTA! A little Audition, net surfing and Msn chatting in between. Kind of realised there's another 2 heros that I'm interested in. The new hero that looks like a white tiger (I forgot it's name) and Lina Inverse!
Curse that bloody Poo who keeps discouraging me.
Curse that he gets even white-r!


Rushed down to AMK after DOTA as me and YongSheng were terribly late. RueyChyi and Casa waited damn long for us that I felt guilty. We wasted like an hour standing beside the road, looking like idiots. In the end, we headed to J8 with Candhira.
HIS PSP IS SO COOL! But it cost $450 to buy everything that's needed. Pity.
Ate Subway for dinner.

I ate a lotttttttt today! Char Shao Su, Egg tart, 6 inch Subway sandwich, 2 chocolate cookies from Subway. Ahhhhhhhh, I've got to do extra crunches later.
But the chocolate cookies from Subway are sooooooo yummy! The sandwiches too. Worth every cent. (:

P.S I spent a lot of money today too. ): Going to go broke soon I think.
P.P.S I need to pass Chmel her pay soon, before I spend it.

I found my $50! It was in my wallet all along. How stupid of me.


Had a 4 hour plus talk with Chmel when I was over at her house today. We actually wanted to go to the gym at Bishan, but I guessed we were too lazy to get our butts off her bed. We had fun too! I had this huuuuggggeee chocolate doughnut when I was at her house and I feel so guilty after consuming it.
Sinful.


Cheer up girl, everything would be fine if you let nature take it's course because everyone has a purpose in their life and some things are meant to happen. Stay happy and everything would go our way. (:

I'M A FUCKING 53 KG.
How demoralising is that? Ok, don't talk about my fats.

David kind of lectured me today about the way I telemarket.
"Telemarketing is using the tele to market."
Yes, I know that David, yes I know. But he told me how to presuade the people and keep talking even if I think they're not listening. I ahve to admit that he's quite good. Because his way works. (: Hope I don't get fired.


And I mayyyyyy have lost the 50 bucks my mummy gave e to buy textbooks. Or maybe she didn't even gave me the 50 bucks as I was half asleep. Pray for me.
I would be damn unlucky if I realy lost that $50.
I need money.