Realised what a not-so-good girlfriend I am.
Actually, I should have realised it when people start calling me bitch.
All those things that I should have done but didn't, I will start doing it now.
I appreciated everything and I guessed it's just that I didn't want to "lose face" or I wanted to act cool or whatever. Slap me!! I deserve to die or not "showing my true colours", my positive true colours that is.

My indecisive-ness has caused so much internal torture in him that I feel the intense pain too.
I've joked around too much and I will be serious from now on.
I will repend on my mistakes and start "MAKINGAMENDS" mission now.
So all I hope is that he feels the same as he does, and realise that both the things he wants can be achieved at the same time.
Effort and determination, smeared with love.
I'm going to do all I can to make this work, make him happy.

I guess the both of us needs to be braver and just go.
Don't think of what will happen in the future and just be faithful to each other.
No problem at all. We can do it!
Just give me a chance to make amends, and yup.
Give each other a chance.

I'm staring at the boy, he tripped me and I fall.
Is he mine? Oh, that I'm sure, he's in my written plot.

Just kiss me, don't waste our time.
Come kill me with, your lovely face.
Proceeding fast, to our desire, oh baby.

Have we gone blind?
There's something different we see in our eyes.
Tell me this ain't just the picture that lives inside me.
Truthfully, I wanna be the one that in your mind, every night.
We will be fine, it just takes some time.

I'm staring at the boy, the picture in my phone.
How long more, till the 'day'? About 100 and 4.

Just miss me, think of our times.
At the same time feel, the growing fire.
That's burning deep, into our heart, oh baby.

We've not gone blind.
Our hearts still searching for each other's smile.
Tell me this is for the happiness on our side, yea.
I can take a vow and swear that you're in my mind, every night.
We will be fine, we've just gotta try.

Lalalalala..
I can take a vow and swear that you can hug me tight.
When you arrive, to reurn to my side.

To you from me, thanks for all that you have done to make me smile.

(:

"Who is the guy you're always talking on the phone with ah Kim?"
"Friend la."
"He what school de?"
"I also don't know la. He tell me before but I forget le la."
"How can you don't know!? Don't know a guy that well also can talk to him so happily de ah!?"
"Aiya, he tell me before le but I forgot le ma. Private school de la, B-M something de."
"Huh, B-M-what?"
"See, even if i tell you, you also don't know."
"Then how old is he?"
"17."
"Actually thought he is your schoolmate. Or else how you know him?"
"Dota la dota la.."
"So every saturday you go out with him la?"
"No la.. no la."
"Kim, now you slowly get to know people from outside of school le you must be more careful, know a not? Is he trustable?"
"Careful for what? I say he my friend le ma of course I trust him la."
"Later he anyhow put things inside your food and give you eat then you know. Or later you get taken advantage of also don't know."
"WALAO!!! He won't de la. I trust him enough to say that la."
"I'm juts telling you la. Must be careful.. That time he still tell me what he think you very pretty.."
"Aiya! Play play only ma.."
"But he still mean it right? Means he got designs on you.."
"What the hell. Say until like that. I very clever de la. I'm not stupid."
"U smart jiu good. Know how to think jiu ok."
"Ya la, ya la. I know what I'm doing la. I trust him means I trust him la. Ok la, bye bye la."
"You ah.. Bye."

confused nowadays la.
dun noe happy or guilty or whatever shit am supposed to feel.
some ppl want me to be happy. some think i'm a bitch.
confused la.

MY NOSE IS FRIGGING PAIN ALL THANKS TO SOMEONE!!!

ms. lee and me. look like twins?

a nicely taken picture.

many things happened this few wks when i wasn't able to blog.
happy, sad, stupid. misunderstandings, lessons and my life became complicated.
things that are meant to be ended shouldn't be forced to be rewind. start everything all over again, and be happy.

I AM HAPPY NOW.
(:



mistakes shan't be repeated again, promise.

FUCKMYASS!